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Oct 8 2002
Well i am back ;)
Its been a long couple of months.
I have to addmit it, i have been very depressed. I have felt like there is nothing i am really doing in my life. i dont know who i am or what i want out of life, please say someone out there has felt this way too?!
Anyways i have been very down on my self. But i have just moved in july and found a great surprise next door.The girls next door are twins, two beautiful confedent BBW. They are only 13 but the have the confedence that is still taking me years to find. They are big, yet they are beautyful and no one will tell the otherwise. When i hang around they make me feel great. I know that to some i seem less the perfect and that i am no cover girl but to these two girls i am cool, a BBW they can look up to , so i got to start playing the part. And start loving an respecting me!
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Jan 22/02
Hello all again,
a new installment in the story of my life. i am venturing out into the great wide open... i started school again. I am totaly excited and totally scared!
I left the small town of Peterborough, where i lived for 20 years, and came to Kingston, ontario.
Its a huge change for me i have left all my friends behind and have to start all over again.
And let me tell you i am not good at making new friends.I feel so shy around other people and i always feel like i say the wrong things. Anyways, i am really proud to say i talk to a few people!!!:)
I am just learing to feel comfortable in my skin and when you are not comfortable in yourself it is hard to feel that way with others. Any who i am taking Web page design so i hope to be making this web site better. Well bye for now!
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Dec27/01
This week my best friend and i went to go get our photos taken, she was leaving the next day for College , and so i wanted to have a photo for the two of us.
My Best frien is 4 feet 10 with an athltic bod, gorgous red hair and deep brown eyes. She ALWAYS looks good in photos, and in everyday life!
Anyways here i am 6'1 ,280 pounds and a huge case of Bad hair dayz syndrom. Well, i was trying to be confident, i was a BBW i can do anything and look good while doing it , right? I wish! I was directed by the Photographer and friend( If you can picture a 4 feet 11, girl ording me arond like a little puppy!) to sit and stand the way they wanted me. When the photos came on the screen, All my BBW confidence went out the window. My But Stuck out like an Oceanliner, my back and breast were so huge and hunched over i look like a Fatter version of The Hunchback of Notra Dame.
But Of course my friend looked as good as ever!
She Tryed to console my and say i looked good, but then went on to pick the photo i looked to worst in!
From that time on i have been depressed , there is someting about Photos that just depress me.
But alas i may be a Hunchback and seem outa place, to me, but My fiace says i am the most beatuiful woman he has every seen, and for no thats good enough for me!
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